I know it kind of sounds like a joke. Maybe I’ve just watched too many Alfred Hitchcock films. But it really wasn’t funny.
To try to cope with a world that is always in motion is maddening. It gave me a constant headache and nausea. At its best, it was like being car sick all of the time.
During the past few days I also have gained a better understanding of what it would be like to lose my brain function. I spent most of the time lying down or sleeping. (The doctor prescribed medicine for motion sickness, which actually made it difficult to stay awake.) I found out that the key was to move my head as little as possible. If I did need to turn my head, I had to do so slowly.
Although the dizziness was horrible, the scariest part for me was my inability to focus or answer simple questions. When I got to the doctor’s office, the nurse started asking me routine questions, such as, “Are you allergic to any medication?” OK. I have answered that question many times in my life.
“I know the answer,” I said slowly.
Then it was like I had to dive into a deep ocean and swim around trying to find the information. This has happened to me numerous times over the past few days.
I feel like I need to apologize to my brain for taking it for granted. I have spent way too much time thinking about what it would be like if I were to permanently lose brain function. And I now have a lot more sympathy for older people or those who have gone through a stroke who have to cope with the loss of their brain’s ability to work properly.
This morning, it was a huge relief to wake up to a room that wasn’t spinning. I’ve been told by lots of people that once you have experienced vertigo, you are likely to get it again. But I am hopeful this is the end of my roller coaster ride.